Goaling It Forward

As the year progresses, I am finding myself racing to get the goals I have set for myself accomplished in some form or another.

The first goal was to re-discover myself spiritually, and I am well on my way towards that end. This journey so far has been awesome, and the year has been full of personal discoveries.

I love what I am doing in my path, however I need to start practicing more.

The next goal was to have a good home that I could afford and live a peaceful life in.  

So far that isn't happening, so I am currently searching for a better place to live with less hassle. I have been dealing with a leak in my ceiling that is the result of faulty plumbing from the noisy assholes who live in the apartment upstairs.  This has caused my apartment to be infested by gnats, and I am constantly buying apple cider vinegar, Raid and gnat traps to kill them, but to no avail.

Most of the original problems were not fixed before I moved in, and they were basically hidden from me.  There is a lesson here for the next time I search out an apartment.

I have begged and pleaded with management to fix these problems and have not seen a result in the three months I have been here.  He has not even bothered to address the noise issues from upstairs that prevents me from living a decently quiet life.  

The complex itself has had numerous visits from local law enforcement, and it is disgusting to see when I expected this place to be a nice place.

So, the next step here is to find a better place to live and just move on. No sense in putting my money in escrow when that will cost more and I will still have to live here until they fix the problems..and cause strife between myself and the complex when I have problems again.  

The next goal was to have a good job where I can support myself.  

When I quit the job I started the year out, I did so because it was supposed to be a better opportunity, but things didn't work out, and after having a rocky few months, I was called back to the company I started the year out in, and everything seems to have changed a lot in energy levels...it seems there are more positive energies in the place than before.

I was also told that I am NOT allowed to quit again because I just fit there, and as long as I can work, they will always hire me back. That was something that made me feel very good about what I accomplished there and how my work ethic pays itself off.  I am also planning to stay with this company through the good and the bad for as long as I can.

I am a bit in the hole right now with finances, but I will be able to quickly get back on track and have things going again.

The next goal I had set for myself was to start working on setting up my own business.  

This goal is a little harder than I want to admit to, but right this minute, I am working on the knitted projects and trying to figure out how to best get launched.  I want my own knitting business, but in order to do that I will need to get the projects done, this includes setting up knitting time and working with patterns, finding a good venue for selling my product and getting my social media sites set so that I can advertise.  

This also means setting up a following for myself through blogging and other means to get things going.

I know that I will not make much money from my venture, but that is alright, it would be extra money for things that I need or want.

I am also considering doing this from a Wiccan perspective as well, making alter cloths, bags, pouches, etc for the community.  I am already on a Pagan social network, so I can go there and show my work.

I would love to learn to spin my own yarn and dye it too.  That would be a cool way to go about making original works.

The next thing I wanted to accomplish this year was to establish a routine for my home life.  This would include my beauty regime, knitting, meal time, and Internet time. 

So far, I have been able to set up a rough routine, and you can see some of the result of what I am accomplishing.  Unfortunately, with the rough patch when I worked barely 25 hours for a couple of months, I lapsed  a little bit, so I am trying to get things going in a more rigid way, and that is slowly going to build momentum in the next few weeks as I readjust to my old job. 

I do need to get organized and  have everything written down that I need to do, and keep track of, and keep in the habit of carrying it with me and writing important things down. I have one little planner, but I rarely carry it with me or look at it, and I need to fix that problem.

I know I have a simple life, but I will need the planner/organizer to log my knitting time as well as all of my other responsibilities for the coming months. Fall and most of the winter are busy times for me.

I will continue to work on this one, and make it part of the goals for next year to continue on with this one and working on routine.

The final goal for the year was to attempt to quit smoking and possibly become Vegan or Vegetarian.

So far, I have not been able to get these two into the arena to try. 

I wanted to quit smoking first, but for some reason, I have not been able to quit.  I know it is hard to do, and there are a lot reasons to do so.  I could blame stress and the things that I have going through the last few years, but I can truly say that smoking is a mental habit as much as it is a physical one.  It has been hard to get my brain around not smoking. I know I need to quit, but getting my brain to say that it wants to quit is hard, it expects the habit to happen.

So, my next step on this is probably going to happen this week.  I am temporarily broke, so I can't buy any until the end of the week, and even then, I don't know if I will be able to afford it after then either.

If this does work, I will go to the next step of this plan in October when I am hoping to move into a new place...becoming a Vegetarian.

I really want to be an organic Vegetarian then Vegan because it will help my health, and my goal is to be fifty in 2020 and look like I am forty.

I think that if I start out slowly, I can slowly replace meats and dairy from my diet by New Year's day. 

There are other goals that sit at the back of my heart at the moment, and I am taking things slowly at this time.

The job will help me to support myself, and if I work well and save money, my other goals will be within reach of accomplishing. There are so many other things I want to do before or by the time I am fifty years old.

Next year, part of my goal is to be driving again, save money so that I no longer have to worry about the future, take a small vacation, and have a nice small business. These things are longer term, and every goal that I will set for myself will rely on the accomplishments of this year.

I do want to write a novel, keep doing all things Outlander, blogging about my new ventures, and get back to the sites that I miss more than anything. 

I also want to go to Canada to visit my girlfriend and be with her, and bring her here to be with me for a while too.  In order to do that, I will need to be able to drive, have vacation time, and a place to live that she will be comfortable coming to.

Since I am rediscovering my Wiccan path, I am hearing the voices of my true self and heritage.  I feel the connections to what and who I truly am again. I am starting to feel my distant past in my soul again, and I FINALLY feel alive again.

I feel myself coming home to myself and I am more interested in living this magickal path than I have ever been anywhere else.  I feel the shackles being lifted from my soul and it is awesome!

I am loving my life right now and how well it is going. Every day is a wonderful discovery.

My goal by the time I am fifty is to be able to go to Pagan festivals and gatherings just to make friends who have this in common with me.  That's another thing to look forward to in the future.

I also want to go to Wool Festivals and other Fiber arts events throughout the Midwest and south.  It would be so cool to do yarn crawls throughout the area.

Once I am able, I would love to create my own personal vegan/vegetarian personal cookbook.  I wouldn't sell it, but use it for myself. 

I know that a lot of what I am doing now, and planning to do for my future will not sit well with some of my friends and family members, but I can't be concerned about what they want for me, or what they think of what I should be or do.  I am no longer going to care about their censure or judgment. I am who I am, and that is what I have decided that it is time to be.

I am a Wiccan Witch, bi-sexual, ageless, and proud of that, and from now on, I will do what I have to do to be who and what I am. I will love whom I love, like the things I like, worship the way I feel connected to, and enjoy life on my terms.

I won't wait until some of the older members of my family to die before I can live the way I want to, I will do it now. I won't fake it or hide it either. I'm tired of hiding it from others, and I am tired of trying to please them.

Since I am working on my goals and have more coming, I don't have time or the desire to worry about what others think or feel towards my decisions.

I have begun my personal shadow journal for my journey, and I considered doing it all here, but I changed my mind and just write about my path on paganspace.net under my Wiccan name.  I am trying to build up the blog there and make friends.

I noticed that I have very few posts here in this year, and there has been so much going on that was bad and good that should have been recorded, but without Internet or using my cell phone, it was hard to write good posts. I am a little ashamed of that.

I will try my best to write more here and set up a better system of updating my life. I forgot what it was like to blog or write in a journal.  I used to love this.

I miss writing in Tea In Austenland too. I will have to just do something with that too, I have some ideas right now that may incorporate that blog.

In the last months of this year, I will try to work more in the blogs and knitting, living my Wiccan life, and doing my Outlander thing as well. 

So much going on, so much to do, and so much to look forward too, I am excited and feeling great about the road I am on right now.

Happy Labor Day!