Hairy Finances, Spring Cleaning and Other Chatter

Things are getting hairy with my finances.  I can't seem to make things work out right now.

By next week, I think things will be a bit worse, though I cannot be too certain.

It will be alright, since I know I can handle a lot of it since I am still trying to find a job, and I know it won't last much longer.

I also have some plans to write.  I have a few ideas in my head that I want to get out before too long so it will be alright.  I can't wait to begin.  I am going to start writing using the old fashioned way so I can get everything I need in my head down so I don't forget them. Besides, with my computer being so slow and old, it would be a great idea to do this that way until I can do something better.

I just need to remember that I am going to make it through everything I can and do what needs to be done.

This week, the weather has been very warm and beautiful, even when it rained.  

I love the Spring, it always makes me feel good about myself and about life.  Everything is new again and refreshed. Flowers are blooming and color is everywhere this time of year.

I am reading a lot this week too.  I am trying to get myself caught up in everything so I am ready for fall when all the releases I want to read come out.  

I have also cut back on my role playing and am feeling a bit easier about myself and am able to get more done this week.  I haven't finished up my apartment cleaning, but have been able to do the other things I have put on my To-Do list and set some great things in motion.  I am happy with the growing results.

Some day I hope to accomplish more than I have in the last two years and get things done!

I haven't given up on knitting, but I am in need of help, and I am going to look for someone to help me learn how to do it soon.

I asked my little brother how much longer he thought we would have our grandmother...I think he doesn't want to think about the possibility of loosing her, but the point I was making was that we HAVE to think about it because it will happen and we must be prepared to let her go when the time is right.    I don't like it any more than they do, but that is what we must be prepared for.

Life changes, I wish it was different, but we can't avoid the inevitable but we can enjoy as much time as we can with them while we have them.

My only hope is that she doesn't forget us as she gets older-her grandchildren.  I think that would be the worst thing in my heart, but at least we have our memories of her and with her.  

She is still relatively healthy, so thinking about it should only come once or twice a year is a good idea for now.  For now, I am going to do everything in my power to make sure I am alright so she won't worry about me when she leaves us in the future.

So my long term goal is to make sure that I can take care of myself by myself without her worry.

I also found out my father's actual age the other week and am forced to recognize that he is getting older than I thought he was...he is healthy and happy and active so I am not worrying about him in that capacity, but it is forcing me to realize that my parents are the most precious gift I could have...it still bugs me that Dad is the age he is, but it is alright, I love him.  

I can't believe this week is almost over and I feel like I have been too lazy to get anything done except small things.  It is time for Spring Cleaning and I can't even bring myself to clean...I think that is the problem with many people these days.  I will get it done this month so I am going to be alright.

I am also searching for ideas for my Jane Austen blog or to figure out what to do with it in the coming weeks.  I think it is time to use it for the other purpose for which it is intended-writing and learning...

There is more on that, but I will share it as soon as I can finalize some thoughts there.

With spring comes new beginnings and with new beginnings, I think I will have some good ones if I  stay the course..

Have a great Thursday!

Announcements And Wanting To Move

Looks like I am going to be doing more for my unit ALA than I am sure I am capable of.

The news I had promised was that I have agreed to take on Chaplain for this unit.

My beliefs are similar to theirs and they all believe in me, so it would only mean that I will be spending more time with them-one extra meeting a month along with all the other American holidays I will be required to join in.

I doubt this will be easy, but at times I feel that this is my calling in life...to be a helper for many and a comfort to most.

While my beliefs are diverse and my thoughts about certain taboos in the Christian world are different in many ways, I can keep myself detached on these particular subjects...besides, there are Jewish Chaplains in the American Legion and the Auxiliary so I don't think it will be an issue if I don't make it one.

I will begin my duties after the elections in May, though nobody else is running for this position, it may turn out that someone will do some write-in votes, but I doubt that will happen so I will resign myself to the fact that I will become the Chaplain for 2013-2014 for our ALA unit.  

Who knows, I may love it, and keep doing it through the rest of my time there.

I have another issue with my need to get a job as quickly as I can...

I had an issue with my apartment manager/owner last week that makes me feel that I cannot live in this hovel for much longer.  He is a pain in the butt and I have never felt comfortable around him...he is nice and he is willing to work with me since things are going bad, but he pulled an illegal stunt last week that makes me just want to get out of here as fast as I can.

In order to leave this hovel, I need to get a job, get all the bills up to date and find some place new to live here in the town that I live so that I can continue my duties to the ALA and be in a place that I kind of like living these days.  I just can't live in this apartment anymore, not if he may do these illegal acts again in the future.

Don't get me wrong, he is a nice guy, but there is something about him that makes me want to avoid him whenever I can...it may just be me, but something is off.

So, my other goals are simple...find a job as soon as I can then find a new place to live...

Downton Abbey Season 3

Finally finished watching Downton Abbey's season 3.  

I am sad that Dan Stevens left the show, but it is alright because everyone must move forward in their lives when they see that it is time.  I wish him luck in everything he does.

I will still watch the show and use it for my comfort marathon days since I will be looking forward to season 4 right along with everyone else on this planet.  It will be fun to see the new members of the cast and watch those who remain do their thing...and I am glad that Dame Maggie Smith is staying and that rumors say that Shirly Mclaine is coming back for a bit more...and who can resist Hugh Bonneville?  Not me, so siree lol

I am  making it my goal to actually have a job by the time the show airs in the US.  I am looking forward to that being my Sunday night special time!

I am not sure why I love this show so much since I prefer my period dramas to be set in different times in British history, but it is a wonderful show with a lot going on.

I can't wait for season 4 to come!

April 2013 Goals

Happy April 1!

I have set some minor goals for the month of April.

First and foremost is to find a job.

The other goals are to start taking vitamins again and start my beauty routines again.  I am tired of looking tired all the time and tired of feeling less than up to par in my health.  I started today.

Yes, I have been thinking about my grandmother a lot and how things have slid so much over the last years of her life, and I don't want to be like that in my old age. 

My other goal for the month is to get my home cleaned and organized.  I have begun the work today and it is coming along nicely.  It is time to make my home my sanctuary not a pigsty.

I have set up my organizer so that I can see a To-Do list and be able to accomplish things as best as I can through the month.  I am not forcing things, and things that don't get accomplished will be a part of the next month's agenda.

The other is to get on a regular sleep schedule so I don't waste my days!  I am tired of being awake all night and sleeping all day, wasting time.

Since my To-Do list is short each month, getting things done will be easier.  It would be stupid to make a list the size of Santa's Nice and Naughty lists because I would never accomplish them without a sense of being overwhelmed. This is a good way to get things done.  Besides, this is the method Stephen R. Covey suggests in his books..

I am also starting to learn to knit.  It isn't easy, but I want to learn so that I have something productive to do and I like crafts. I can crotchet so that is fun to do to, along with embroidery.

I want to sew too sometime soon.  I don't know why, but this  need to learn these old fashioned domestic things is important to me right now.

I also have an idea on my writing and I am looking into what I can do with them.

By the end of this month, I am hoping to have some good new habits and a clean home!

Wish me luck!