Writing Again, Last Rites of Negative Posting and Looking Forward to the Future

I have been thinking a lot this weekend, and how I am tired of doing life the way that I have been.

Even though I am in the process of finding a new place to live, there are things that I want to do now.

I want to write and I want to empower myself or protect myself from those who are now trying to pull me down.

Writing has been calling me a lot lately, and I really do want to get back to it.  

I am also in the process of finding some good spells and empowerment exercises to do so that when I am at work, it doesn't affect me when I come home to write and live a quiet life without negativity following me in. I am hoping to find a way so that I can move into a new home without worrying about it all following me where ever I go.

It's been funny lately.  I have been able to say what needs to be said, and when I do it comes out strong, and I feel stronger about myself.

There's something in me that wants to show those Mayberry Ignorant Fools who I really am most days.  Though, throwing out my lexicon to that crew would only be a waste of my time.  Instead I will just do what I have to do and show the ones who sign my paycheck my worth since the ones who do this are only on the lower rungs of the workplace food chain.

So, after talking about that, I don't want to ever mention work or anything negative again.  I have too many good things to focus on. I will protect myself every day and wear my self pride on my shoulders as I always have, and always plan to. I will ignore the stares and backbiting of those who will be forgotten once I walk out of work every day.

Now on to other more positive things...

I already have a few poems and a story in my head that I cannot wait to flesh out and share with the world.   I want to get Dreams of the Blue Rose active once again. It will be so much fun to get back to writing again!!  I can't wait to get to it once again.

My financial situation is looking comfortable, and I will continue to make it so that I won't worry about finances as the years go by.  

Since I have been kissed by the Goddess with luck, I have been able to keep my job through this tough time, and have been able to get some things paid off or paid down so that I won't worry when I find somewhere else to live.  I may even be able to drive once again and not rely on the bus for anything,and I can walk once again for the thrill of it.

In this time of change, I know that I am using this time wisely to walk the path that I am supposed to and not see it as a bad thing, but a valuable lesson.  I know that this world is full of uncertainty and people are crazy, so I will continue to be positive and not let others affect my outlook through this.  

Knitting has actually become a happy distraction for me as well.  I haven't done much in starting new projects, but I am working on the ones that I started, and am looking at what else I can make that I can knit my own energies and love into.

I am so excited about the next stage of my life and everything that I want to accomplish!!  I hope everyone else has that same feeling, and that what is happening worldwide will change the hearts of even the most negative people in the world.

Blessed be!
Raven

I'm Back

I haven't written in a long time, mainly because life is what it is.  I kept my old job, and thankfully, it is a company that is essential, and by tomorrow afternoon, I will be one of only six people left working until this is all over with. While I am glad that I am still working, I know that management is holding on to me and the other five as long as they can.

Right now, the entire world has time to stop and regroup...to reflect and find a new direction in life.  I wonder how many people will end up following a new path.

Over the course of the last months, I have not been able to do much with changing myself or how I practice my path. Mainly because I am lazy sometimes.  I say that I will do it, but I end  up just sitting around watching Kdramas and dreading the next day when I will have to go to work and deal with people who seem nearly bipolar in the way they treat me. 

As soon as this is over with, I will be moving.  I have to find a new apartment, and this time, I am going to look for something that fits me and my needs.  I need a sanctuary away from the world that I feel comfortable in, and that isn't the place that I am living now.

I have been able to read more too, I am glad that I am because I am enriching my mind and keeping it active at the same time. I am also slowly working with what I am learning so that I can become stronger.

I have been learning to empower myself at work over the last few months too.  I don't know what is really happening, but I have been defending myself more and more with everyone, including my supervisor and her assistant.  I have also learned to say no to people too.  I am growing more with each passing month.

There has been one area that has been concerning me about myself...

For twenty one years, I have been a huge fan of Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series, and have been watching the show on Starz since it began, however I have not kept up with this season and have no real desire to for the moment.  I don't understand why I am not excited about the show or about the cast like I used to be.  I don't even blog about that very often and am behind on my Outlander blog.

I have been re-reading the books whenever I am not reading about Wicca, watching K-dramas or knitting.  I haven't even kept up with the author on her blog.

I have also lost a lot of interest in Facebook.  I am never there like I used to be. I am wondering why this has happened. It is very weird for me to not be totally into Outlander like I used to be.  I may be growing in a way that I had never expected to grow I guess.

Maybe things will change sooner or later, but right now, I am working on myself and where I need to go next in this life so that my journey is a good one and I am content with who I am and what I do in life!

Everyone stay healthy and safe!
Raven