I will be moving into my new home this weekend if all goes as it should. I've been staying with family since the end of October and they are driving me nuts-my father is any way.
I don't understand where he is coming from most weeks since he can barely hear, forgets a lot of what is said to him, and he sleeps a lot. He's very self absorbed as well.
I try to be patient, knowing that he is almost eighty years old and is close to the end of his life. He means well, and he loves me as I love him, but we are better off not living in the same place.
I've missed my privacy and personal space...I miss doing my thing without feeling like I'm a third wheel to their life. I prefer living aline anyway.
I also have a couple of cancer tumors in my bladder and said bladder will need to be removed very soon. I'm not worried or scared. I know that this is to save my life, so it's alright. It'll be inconvenient in the beginning but it will get better with time. Many live with what I will live with and have improved their quality of life. If they can do it, so can I.
I'm preparing for the time that I will have to go in for my surgery. After I move, I'll have one or two things left to accomplish and I'm ready...both things will be done within the next few weeks.
In a way, I'm ready to get this health situation over with, I'm tired of hurting and am ready for a little time off to relax and re-evaluate my life until now...I will take that time to reflect on who I am and how I want to spend the rest of my life once I'm on the right road.
I'm more excited to move and have a nice new home with my own things around me. I'm looking forward to living a good life, however that may be.
-Karol
