General Stuff Right

I have been on a cleaning spree lately.  I don't know why.  I just got up on Sunday and decided that I was done with it all.  Maybe that is what it took to get me motivated to get started.  

It is a well known fact that a clean home is less depressing, especially for single people.  I don't know  why but  looking at something that isn't going to clean itself is very depressing.

I have the major part of the work done, so I am in a great place so far.

Things are going alright lately, but I can't help but wonder when things are going to blow up for a certain friend and the lies being told.

It makes me wonder why people are like the are.

Welcome To The New Prince of Cambridge!!!

We interrupt our regularly scheduled program to congratulate the Duke and Duchess of Cambridge on the arrival of the new Prince of Cambridge.

Born at 4:24 pm, weighing in at 8 lbs, 6 oz.!

Prince William, we have watched you from the day YOU were born and this is the happiest of days, your mother is smiling down on you as is the rest of the world!!

http://www.usatoday.com/story/life/people/2013/07/22/the-royal-baby-has-arrived/2416235/

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! WOOOOHOOOOO!!!!

Getting There

Forgive me for not being here recently, I intended to blog on Wednesday which was my day off but I was called in to work and I need the money.  I INTENDED to blog yesterday but after six days of straight work all I did was come in, watched a movie and had something to eat, slept five hours then got up to finish said movie, took a shower then went back to sleep another ten hours.  I was wiped out this week.

There hasn't been much going on recently.  I spent most of the week trying to conserve my energies for work.  

I have a new friend who challenged me in writing the other night.  She was fantastic!  I needed that a lot.  Granted the writing challenge came in the form of erotica, but the boost inspired me in many ways to begin working again.  

While this friend inspires me to write better and stronger, she also challenges me and helps me in writing.  I still haven't started working on what I need to do, but I am better equipped.

Over the course of the next few weeks  I am going to learn to better organize my online time so that I am better at getting online to blog, write and do the things that I need to do to make life better all around for myself.

I have talked about organization a lot in past posts and I have been making great progress in that department.  

The next phase of my organization is to throw away things that are no longer useful for my life and all of the old papers that seem to accumulate in my little apartment.  I have this pack rat mentality when it comes to paperwork.  I don't know why I have to keep every piece of paper that comes into my hands.  This is the next step...and will be done this week.

I am getting there!

***By the way, I am working slowly towards my 200th post!

Taking Care Of Business Fae Style!

It happened.  The woman at work pushed it to the breaking point on Friday afternoon.

Rather than crying, and going on to let it get to me.  I did get upset, went home calmed myself down and went to work yesterday determined to NOT let anything get to me and do my job...with a twist.

One of the ladies who was witnessing the situation and how it was handled was with me when I went to management, along with a few others who had witnessed or heard about the issues all week.  It will be taken care of, and I let it be known that I will no longer be a victim of this kind of verbal attack.

I used the words "harassing", "targeting", "abusive", "bullying",  and "rude" to get my point across. The manager looked at me with bug eyes.  She did try to see if the problem lie with me as well, but when the witness defended me by stating exactly WHAT the bully was doing, she backed off of me and I admitted that yes, there may have been an issue with the way I was doing things, but that did not constitute being talked to like garbage...that the other woman could easily have come to me and spoke to me with common courtesy and basic human dignity.  The witness defended me in a way that was humbling and quite frankly, like a loyal friend even though we are not friends.

I have a feeling I be at work tomorrow and the bully will either ignore me or come to me crying and apologizing.  Either way, I will accept whichever  happens and do my job.  That is what I am there for, and I will work to the best of my ability.

Friday, I was helped by fellow co-workers throughout the afternoon and they treated me with such kindness and compassion, I see the basic differences from the past.  I feel very good about working with them, and vow that I will constantly treat them as team members and with the same kindness and compassion they have shown me.  They have come to the point where they work together and they are good together, even when one or another gets on nerves at times.

As of this moment, all that I learned from my last job and from Laura Stamps has started to pay off and become a benefit to me personally and I am ready to face whatever happens and not quit this job because of one person who has NO authority.

I have been doing my morning empowerment and protection rituals, but added in the use of a rune for protection and it seems to be helping a lot!  This helps me to make sure I take matters in my own hands and NOT allow others to overpower me again!

I will no longer blog about this incident because there will be no need of it in the future because it is taken care of and over with.

I will not think about it or work when I clock out and go home anymore either, it has been clogging my creative spirit and I cannot live with that anymore...and I won't.  I need to do what is needed to be ME and that place is just an income source and not worth the extra worry.

Blessed be

Using Wisdoms From The Past For The Present.

This week is becoming a week of learning to keep myself quiet about certain things and protecting myself from negative energies and bullies.

I have been dealing with one at work who is determined to try to make me look like a fool and is bullying me personally at work.  She is someone to whom I will never voice my own personal opinion about at work, on company property or with anyone I work with (except the only one I trust to keep it to himself) because it could get me in trouble OR it will make me exactly like she is in a lot of ways.

Here it is:  She is an ignorant, lazy, suck up of a human being who finds fault with others because she doesn't want to see that she is basically trash herself.  She wants the boss to see the bad in others so she doesn't see the bad in  herself.  She has no filter on her mouth, and someday very soon she may lose her job because of the abusive things she says to me and a few others.   She is jealous of a lot of people there...on is a beautiful and quiet young Mexican woman who does her job and more because she wants to work.

I don't understand why this girl is the way she is, she can change herself if she wants to.  I know she has children and she is overweight, but still you can change many things about yourself without doing damage to others....yes, she can loose weight, but she can fix her attitude so that she can be happy...she can work hard to try to learn new things (she was in college but she quit for a while) to improve your mind and you can always smile more and find things to enjoy about life-her children, her new boyfriend, she has a job, she is healthy...instead, she chooses to drink, leave her kids to roam the streets while she naps and find ways to bring others down.  I know she is in her early thirties, and she has time to learn, but I fear this one will not learn anything in her life because she has already been taught to look at the positive in the world and put it down!

The other situation isn't a bullying one, but keeping quiet.  The situation is between two friends, and I know the real truth, but I am not going to say anything because I am afraid that if I do, it will all come back on me and I will lose them both.  If I let the one discover the truth about the other, and be there for them both, it may be easier.  I still believe these two can be good for each other, and that once this comes out (which I am surprised that it didn't come out when they got together), and they work through it everything will be alright. This isn't about infidelity, it is about lying about ones' self to the other and the insecurities of one of them in particular.  The first isn't sure about it all, but the things being told to him by another friend are too hard for him to ignore, but the other one has "explanations" for everything...though there is damning evidence online against him that cannot be ignored.  I know, I have found all of the information myself...

I  have kept quiet about this to the one who perpetuates the lies and his family because I don't want them to know that I know the truth until they tell me, and I am not going to go around accusing them of anything, I have been keeping silent and waiting to see if they will come out and tell me the truth, then I am going to tell them I already knew and figured it all out, and I don't care because he is a good young man with a sweet heart and it doesn't matter.  If they open up and tell me the truth, I will encourage him to tell his boyfriend the truth so they can work through this together, rather than let the guy find out on his own and get hurt...it would be better if the truth came from the source and not from anyone else... it will hurt, yes, but at least it won't be as bad as coming from elsewhere.  This is also causing a rift between the first and his friend of many years and that has to stop!  They cannot keep this up because they are hurting a special man who served this country and doesn't deserve that kind of pain after all he has been through.

Three days into this week and already a lot of craziness in real life and online that is going to test the limits of my abilities to retain lessons learned from everything else.  The second situation is one that could cause a lot of damage and I could get caught up in it if I do or say anything and I don't want that to happen since I still like them all in that situation.  I learned a long time ago that these situations aren't going to come out well, and I must keep my distance from them in order to not get the backlash.

In the first situation, I have two witnesses to the bullying and I told another since it was verbal bullying.  This time, I am not letting it happen again.  I will have witnesses to this so that I can fight it better and faster than the last time.  If it gets out of hand, I will do what is necessary to make sure that I am not the looser in this situation and that I have voiced what needs to be said without causing any harm to my karma.  I will show her and many others that I am not a doormat, but I am a good person who works hard and enjoys my job...I am also going to counter her bad attitude with MY good mood, no matter what happens here.

Using Lessons Learned

You know, I shouldn't complain about this, but it is getting so hot and with the rain, it isn't much better here.  

I know it gets hot in the summertime where I live, but lately it is getting to the point where I can no longer deal well with the heat.  I don't know why.

I used to be able to go out during the summer and enjoy the warm air, and go for walks in the park, but these days, it is so hard to.

I've been working on getting things organized and under control in my life...so far, it is going well.  Everything is starting to have a place and I am able to do things in a timely fashion.  It is nice.

Work is going well, but it there are things there that I am trying very hard to keep quiet about and not get upset over.  It is the same as it was when I worked there before, except some of the newer people and one or two of the original people seem to make it a better place with their attitudes.  I just stay calm and try to push those negative energies away, but eventually I may have to stand my ground and speak up against it.

It is alright so far, the lessons I learned at my last job really helped me to learn to protect myself well while I am at this job now, and it hasn't gotten to me yet. I also keep reminding myself that ignorance is bliss and prejudice is a natural inclination in the human psyche, so I must use patience with them.

They still get weird about the young man I spoke about, but he doesn't let it affect him in any way, and I am trying to take on his attitude about the whole thing...he and I have a shared passion for reading and we chat about that while others look at us like we are from Mars or something...I secretly laugh over the puzzled expressions because they now understand that I am someone who is intelligent and I love to expand my world to the edge of the universe.

Either way, it will work itself out and by the Goddess, I will prevail and I will be alright against this place....and its bullies and ignorant beings.

Celebrating Independence Day!

Today we celebrate the day when fifty six men in thirteen colonies declared that the new colonies in  America would be free of rule from anyone else but themselves.  

They decreed that each individual had certain inalienable rights endowed to them by THEIR creator.  

The declaration was that all were free.

We as a nation have been working on this ever since, we are not perfect and we are still growing and learning HOW to make this a complete reality for ALL people...we will get there some day, but right now, we thank those who made this Declaration of Independence a reality and those who continued throughout the last 237 years to protect that declaration and help make the dream a reality!!

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY AMERICA!

Making Changes

I am going to work to try to get on here more often.  

I miss being here and blogging about things, or sharing what is new in my life...or old. ~grins~

I know I have gotten into this habit of writing on a semi regular basis, but I think it would be nice to come around more often and talk about anything and everything that is interesting in life...

I should come here more often and talk about my Wiccan path.  I don't do that often enough and it makes me wonder if it would help me.

Maybe if I start talking about my journey, it will inspire me to do more.  

I should catch up on my emails!  I haven't done those in weeks because I have been adjusting to the job and the heat and the walking again...

Another couple of habits I should get into, huh?  It is time I did them anyway.

I know I have written about this a couple of times in the last few weeks, but I am still working on getting my apartment cleaned.  

I have a new goal for my apartment...to turn it into my own personal sanctuary.  A place of peace, and where I can practice Wicca without worries.

Of course, I can also be doing this so that if/when I am able to afford a new place I won't  have so much to move out of it.  I still hate this place and this loud obnoxious neighborhood and want out.  I just need to be able to afford and find a better place.

I am tired of the noise, the sirens, the rifles going off, the dirt, and the decrepit look of this apartment and this neighborhood.  It has this poor quality to it that makes me wish I didn't live here.

I know things are going to move forward in my quest to change and to find new ways to live my life. I am not worried in the least.