The last month has gone pretty well. I have two more chemotherapy sessions to go before this is over, and I go next week for the fifth of six.
Time seems to be flying. Mabon has come and gone. I didn't celebrate because of my health. I know that while I am feeling well through all of this, I can do ritual and other things, but it snuck up on me with everything else that I have been going through.
Samhain is approaching, and when it does, I will have ended the chemotherapy and I am thinking about how to go about it, I think that I already know what I want to accomplish, it will just be a matter of getting everything together and doing a bit of research on it.
This is my favorite time of the year, I love the change to cool and the ongoing changes that Mother Nature is enduring for the sake of rebirth. It will forever me my favorite, next to spring.
In recent weeks, I have been doing some re-reading on Wicca and going back again to basics because I want to remember where I came from and learn about what I want to accomplish next. I think that the cancer has given me a need to come full circle on my life.
I cannot wait for this year and the things that I am going through are over with so that I can move forward and live better and stronger. I won't say what I want to do because I usually have a problem with follow through once I do say it, but I will keep it in until the time comes to commit to it in the future.
It is amazing that during the chemotherapy I have not gotten sick (thanks to the medicine that they give me before treatments), and I have not lost all of my hair yet. I am always expecting things to get worse or to loose all of my hair with each treatment, so that I am not upset when it will happen. I just go with the flow, leaving my expectations low every twenty one days. Right now, I look like the Crypt Keeper if he had more hair, but that is alright and it is kind of funny.
I am keeping positive through all of this to help the process of healing. That is good for me and for all of the people who are helping me get through this.
Blessed be!
