Life

 It's been quite a week. The summer heat has been rough at work. I am counting down the days until fall and the time change comes.

It looks like I will be in a new home by or before October. I can't wait for it to happen. I can't wait to get a home where I plan to spend the rest of my time until it's time to move back to my hometown.

I can't wait to finish accomplishing the goals that I set for myself for this year. 

Soon, we will see the beautiful changes of the season, I love it! Watching the leaves change color and the air become crisper makes life better in my opinion.

Labor day is a week away, and with it comes the beginning of it all. The only sad part about this season is that the new school year is not happening as it should because of the pandemic. I miss seeing the school buses going by...they always gave me a sense of nostalgia.

This last week, I got a little lucky.  We had someone return to work after a long absence because of his sick child...I was doing his job the entire time while being bullied by a very hateful human being.  I am now doing a different job where she doesn't have any reason to talk to me unless it is necessary, so I have not been stressed out at all this week. I can't wait until the world rights itself so that we can bring in the staff that had to be laid off. Usually we pick up around the fall and early winter, with the world situation right now, I can only hope that it will not be that bad.

It has been a weird year for me at the age of fifty.  I can't believe that it ended up like this, but it is what it is so I can only take things one thing and day at a time while being patient. Things will get better, and the world will find a new way to deal with things after this. I was looking forward to turning fifty and making it memorable, but it looks like the world had a different thought on making me always remember this age. Gotta love nature and the state of the world.

I am planning on a vacation. I finally get one week, and it feels great to start going in a normal direction in life  It finally feels like I am doing right things to move forward in life. 

This week, I will set up my 401k, try to work more hours in our other department, and start packing an saving for my IRA plan. 

I may have to wait for a while to go to the dentist to get my teeth fixed. I want to save a bit more for that. I normally hate going to the dentist because it means that someone has to spend time in my personal face space. It drives me nuts, but I know that I have to do eventually.

Recently, I have been reading more. Mostly Outlander or Regency romances. It has been years since I have wanted to read a book for relaxation. I think that I am starting to do things as I used to do. I love reading.

I am feeling more and more like i used to feel. The person I miss more than anyone on the planet. I am happy that I can see her once again.

Have a great day!

Raven

Outlandish Knitting Treat, Cooking, Loving Fall

Today I received great news!!  

I love Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series and I love knitting.  This is no secret. So this news comes as a double joy for me.

Diana Gabaldon's publisher, Random House has published a book for knitters!! YAY!!

Outlander Knitting will be available on October 27. I can't wait!! The fall and winter just became more interesting!

I love to knit!  I have a new pattern and yarns that I am looking forward to doing.  There are some new techniques in the pattern that I am looking forward to learning how to do.

What I love about knitting is that I can do it while watching television, listening to books on audio, or listening to music when the pattern is simple.

I also love knitting because I can make things for others that come from the heart. 

It also gets me inspired as the seasons change, I can knit anywhere at any time. 

Someday I want to learn how do more in the textile/yarn arts arena...spinning yarn, dyeing, weaving, and other things related yarn.;

I have been getting more excited about cooking recently.  Usually I don't like to cook because it is only myself that I cook for, and I don't want to spend the time to cook just for myself then do the dishes afterwards, but recently I have been WANTING to cook for myself. I have been getting a comfortable feeling when I do.  I think that I am getting tired of microwaving my meals or ordering from Door Dash.

The scent of food cooking in my home that has been making me happy. So does baking.  I get a sense of nostalgia when I cook the meals that I used to eat when I was growing up and with my family. 

I have also been getting more into my Auxiliary commitments lately too.  Since the slow opening of the state and country, it is nice to be able to be around that side of my family.  I missed them so much. I can't wait until things get put into a sense of stability.

Last week, I took care of the problem at my job. While things got a little better, I don't think that anyone quite figured out what I did or why I did it. I'm not surprised by this. It's hard for their minds to understand that people shouldn't be treated as I had been treated. They didn't get it that the manager/owner did his job because my supervisor wouldn't do hers.

I had to set things right because my work anniversary has come, and I don't want to work in an environment that will make me uncomfortable since I am hoping to retire from that job. I also have rights as an employee.

I am looking forward to the fall.  It is my favorite time of the year.  The changing colors always soothe my heart. It is also a great time because the best holidays coming up...Halloween, Thanksgiving, Labor Day...my favorite holidays!! It is also time for the kiddos to go back to school (for what it is right now).

I hope that I can move before the fall comes so that I can get settled in and decorate. I plan to make my next place my permanent home...at least until I may have to move back to my hometown to be close enough to my family so that I can take care of them.

I have two brothers and two sisters, but one of my brothers has Multiple Sclerosis, and I plan to be there to help take care of him when the family elders pass away. He can take care of himself and things on his own, but someday he won't be able to, so I want to be near when that happens.

This is why I want to get my future savings plan set, and have job security. I want to take care of my family members and be able to live the rest of my life comfortably. I want to make sure that I stay healthy for them too.

With my anniversary at work, starting my 401k at work and putting money into my savings account, it is time for me to get my medical and dental situation going.

It looks like things are starting to get better, now I just have to keep going on this path.

Blessed be!

Circle Sanctuary And Short Term Goals

 As soon as I get settled once again, I want to become a member of and visit Circle Sanctuary Nature Preserve in southwestern Wisconsin once it is safe again to go out into the world and explore its wonders.

Circle Sanctuary is a nature preserve that was founded by the amazing Reverend Selena Fox, who has done so many great things for the Pagan/Wiccan community. 

In creating this sacred space to revel in, she gives us an opportunity to enjoy Mother Nature in all her glory.

One of my many dreams in life is to meet this amazing soul and thank her for lobbying for the Pentacle to be allowed as a religious symbol on the graves of our brave soldiers-pagan warriors-who died in the line of duty.

Even though my father isn't a Pagan, he is a veteran, and I love and respect everyone who has served in the armed forces. So what Selena did deserves my respect as a veteran's daughter AND a Wiccan.

My one year anniversary at my job is coming up this week, and with that I will get a paid vacation.  I am going to save my money and use my vacation time to try to go during a festival or holiday when this pandemic is over, even if it takes me several years to save for this, I will go. This is like my own version of Disney World.

You can't help but admire a woman who has stuck by her convictions, stood her ground and kept a piece of Mother Earth pure and magickal. It has stayed that way in her hands for forty six years, and will remain that way long after she is gone because others will continue on with her legacy.

I would love to live on land that is far from others where only the animals, trees and streams are the only other occupants...where the lights are not artificial, and the Goddess walks freely, giving inspiration to those who look with their hearts and not their minds.

I will go there some day, but until then I will persevere through the things that I must so that I am free when I am able to go...I just ask the Goddess to keep Selena with us until that time.

I am having some problems recently with someone I am working with, but I will be making sure that I can protect myself from that person...and I will do something that nobody has done to this person before.  What I am planning to do will not be bad, nor will it harm them or my karma.  When I do what I MUST to feel comfortable and safe at my job, I will do so in a positive and loving way.

This psyvamp must learn that what they are doing isn't only draining for me and for others, but illegal. It is time that they learn that what they are doing is harassing and inappropriate in the workplace.

Once that issue is dealt with, I think that I will be able to feel free from the oppressive demon that seems to leach on my life. It will be one more step closer to getting what I need to get done in the future. 

By next month, if I do things according to plan, I will have a new home-September or October should be the second step in the changes that I need to make in order to be where I need to on my path. 

I am hoping to find a place nearby that is easy walking access to the places I need to go and quiet enough that I don't have to worry about the neighbors getting nosy and the landlord is nearby so that I know that if things need repairing, I won't have to wait for a long time to live with the problems...and I need a landlord that isn't shady.  I am hoping to find that soon.

While I am doing this, I am doing a bit of purging and packing.  I don't want to drag things that have darkness attached to them, and since I am only a pack rat when it comes to paperwork, it is mostly that.  

As for the financial side,I have purged a lot of the bills-paid them in full-so that I am not left with any financial burdens from the past. I do need to pay down my credit card again, but that won't be too hard here soon. 

I can't wait to get these things all done so that life will get a little smoother before the end of the year.. With the next phases of my goals being set into motion, I feel the weights of negative energies leaving mu shoulders.

Have a great night!

Blessed be!

Raven

200 Posts And Counting!!

This is my 200th post!   I am celebrating!!  YAY!!

I began this blog  on October 9, 2007...thirteen years ago.  Time does fly!

Two hundred posts of varying themes, thoughts, ideas, changes, music, reading, life, hardships and living in general.

I may have to do an anniversary post in October just to celebrate the first post...maybe not.

Since the poet in myself has awakened, I am hoping that this opens the door to more blogging and sharing better things with the world in general.  

I am glad that I began here, and that everyone who has read or been reading this blog will continue to do so. 

I hope that my future posts will be filled with magick, love, positive energies and good things.  I hope that I can look back on my posts from a good place in the future.

The learning experience I take from reading all of my posts from the past is this:  Everything passes, good and bad, and we get through it all!

So, to The Blue Rose Journal:

200 Posts and Counting!!  Let's celebrate!

Blessed be,

Raven

The Awakening of the Raven

After a long wait, and a lot of road blocks on my poetic journey, the Raven has finally come back out to write poetry.

There is a great hope that Dreams of the Blue Rose will once again become active now that the floodgates are opened.

It was so wonderful to be able to see the poet come back out of hiding after so long.  I had almost forgotten that she was there since she seemed to have fallen asleep for so long.

I think it may have been hard for me to see the magickal and wondrous side of the world when I deal with so much negativity recently.  I had forgotten what it is like to sit back, listening to Pagan and Wiccan music while searching the faery realm for that which cannot be seen here. 

Eventually Pegasus will return as well, it is only natural because both are parts of me that have always been there.  The Raven will remind her that it is time to stop sleeping and begin the dance once again. I cannot wait for that day.

With this reawakening, it will be hard to hide this from those around me, and I don't think that I will have a wish or desire to hide it.  I work around pessimists and ignorance so this will be a different for all of them once things start going the way they should.

I am so excited to see and feel the poet in me coming out to play once again.  I have missed this part of myself.  I cannot wait to see what will happen next for us.  

As this happens, other things begin to wake up inside of me, it is refreshing to feel the past collide with a new future, and I am so happy that it is beginning again, with a few differences and a lot of changes that I know the Raven thinks are necessary!

Blessed be

Raven