Tired of Things

It seems that I am questioning myself again-as a writer and as a person.


I need to figure out why I am feeling such ennui these days.


I am trying to read Persuasion, but for some reason, my heart isn't in the place to read.  I want to blog on Tea In Austenland about this but it is hard when I cannot get motivated enough even for that.


I will spend time evaluating myself and figure out why this keeps happening.


Though, I do believe that the attitudes and actions of others that I know online have been the root cause of all of my feelings of apathy.  I watch friends doing stupid things and it makes me want to smack the snot out of them, but I only shake my head and contemplate unfriending them on Facebook.


Another part of me is wanting desperately to go back to the way things used to be when I first began playing on the internet, or doing some changes on me and on the things I do now.  I guess I just want to do things differently or go back to the way they used to be with a difference.


I miss doing book reviews and blogs about Diana Gabaldon and Jane Austen, I want to add more to that too.  I am just ready to make my life productive.


I am also tired of the way things are in my personal life.  The same bad habits keep showing up and keep me from doing what I want to do the most.  I want a productive life!