I'm Back

I haven't written in a long time, mainly because life is what it is.  I kept my old job, and thankfully, it is a company that is essential, and by tomorrow afternoon, I will be one of only six people left working until this is all over with. While I am glad that I am still working, I know that management is holding on to me and the other five as long as they can.

Right now, the entire world has time to stop and regroup...to reflect and find a new direction in life.  I wonder how many people will end up following a new path.

Over the course of the last months, I have not been able to do much with changing myself or how I practice my path. Mainly because I am lazy sometimes.  I say that I will do it, but I end  up just sitting around watching Kdramas and dreading the next day when I will have to go to work and deal with people who seem nearly bipolar in the way they treat me. 

As soon as this is over with, I will be moving.  I have to find a new apartment, and this time, I am going to look for something that fits me and my needs.  I need a sanctuary away from the world that I feel comfortable in, and that isn't the place that I am living now.

I have been able to read more too, I am glad that I am because I am enriching my mind and keeping it active at the same time. I am also slowly working with what I am learning so that I can become stronger.

I have been learning to empower myself at work over the last few months too.  I don't know what is really happening, but I have been defending myself more and more with everyone, including my supervisor and her assistant.  I have also learned to say no to people too.  I am growing more with each passing month.

There has been one area that has been concerning me about myself...

For twenty one years, I have been a huge fan of Diana Gabaldon's Outlander series, and have been watching the show on Starz since it began, however I have not kept up with this season and have no real desire to for the moment.  I don't understand why I am not excited about the show or about the cast like I used to be.  I don't even blog about that very often and am behind on my Outlander blog.

I have been re-reading the books whenever I am not reading about Wicca, watching K-dramas or knitting.  I haven't even kept up with the author on her blog.

I have also lost a lot of interest in Facebook.  I am never there like I used to be. I am wondering why this has happened. It is very weird for me to not be totally into Outlander like I used to be.  I may be growing in a way that I had never expected to grow I guess.

Maybe things will change sooner or later, but right now, I am working on myself and where I need to go next in this life so that my journey is a good one and I am content with who I am and what I do in life!

Everyone stay healthy and safe!
Raven