I have been at my new job for three days, and off today for my doctor's appointment.
I love my new job! It is so easy, and I am never busy. I get to sit around and read or knit for most of the day.
My new boss is awesome. He lets me do whatever I want, and already has confidence in me, enough to leave me alone in the store for hours on end without worry. He has complete confidence in me.
I don't think things could get any better for me there. The pay is great for what I am doing too.
This place reminds me of my first job in this type of work. I loved that first job, and I love this place too. I am not tired or overworked at the end of the day. Unlike my last job, I don't feel like someone knocked me over with a dump truck.
I look forward to going to work now, and that is a good thing.
I met a guy yesterday at the bus stop that can see auras. He said mine was a bright blue one, which means healing. We chatted for a little while, and it was cool. He did apologize for just talking to me out of the blue, but he loved meeting people and because of my aura, he thought I would be a good person to talk to. I didn't mind, usually people at the bus stop look at you like you are very strange or are wrapped up in their phones. I didn't mind, really. I thought it was cool.
Yule is coming very soon, and I am preparing to celebrate it with a lot of love and affection. I am looking forward to it.
My doctor's appointment went very well too. Everything looks good, except for the pain that I have in the back of my head. It isn't cancer, so the doctor suggested that I take ibuprofen three times a day and go from there. If the pain persists, I will go to my family doctor.
I can't wait until the tests and doctor's appointments are done and over with. I am still being monitored for a year or so more to make sure that the cancer stays gone, but I am ready to get to the finish line on this one so that I can get on with life.
This year is almost over with, and I am feeling really good about how things are going.
More later....
-Raven
Working for my former company didn't work out. They expected me to do the things that I had done before I got sick.
My body said: "Nope, not this time around, not going to happen!"
I am not worried though, I applied at another company that I didn't realize was off the beaten path of the bus line, but a bit of a walk. I didn't think that I would get it anyway, and if they called, I would tell them that I had made a mistake.
They called, and really wanted me to work for them. My experience was something that they didn't want to pass up, and they worked out a way to get me to and from the bus stop just so that I could work for them...that blew me away!
They also told me that the job was really simple, that I would have a lot of down time and I could read my Kindle or knit if I want to. They were even sympathetic about the cancer and about the things that I will need to do to get through this next year...they are willing to work with me on these things and are going to do what they can to make sure that I can work.
Granted, there isn't much that needs to be accommodated for with my cancer, just doctors visits, so this is really nice.
It feels good to know that someone wants me to work for them that bad that they are willing to help me so much. I felt appreciated even before I could start working for them. These people are really kind and caring.
I start work on Monday and I am excited. It won't take to long for me to get the hang of things and I will enjoy working there. This time, I will be working with customers and processing garments. The only thing that I will need to learn is their computer system.
I am ready to go back to work and be in an environment where I won't have to be stressed out by everyone for no reason at all. I hope that this job helps me to do the things that I need to do in life rather than rely on disability. I want to rely on myself in the future.
I am so excited to get back to work!!
-Raven
I am happy to say that I am going back to work on Monday.
I enjoyed the year and a half off, but the financial side was barely do-able. I can't live on a fixed income for much longer. The holidays are coming and I want to be able to contribute to them.
I am going back to my old company, and I have asked about positions in another department. I am not sure I want to work in the one I did before. I liked the people I worked with, but I would prefer to work in a situation where I am not doing a lot of different jobs because others aren't there to help with them.
Before going back to work, I am getting my house ready with a deep clean so that I don't have to worry about my home when I go back to work. With the darker months ahead, I think this will be for the best as well since it can get to be a downer as well as a celebratory time of the years.
I have also begun to ready myself for Samhain. I won't be celebrating much for it, but I am now cleansing my tools, and will be consecrating them this weekend as well as setting up my alter.
It is time to start working again on my spiritual self and moving forward as a Wiccan Witch. I have been lazy long enough.
Once I finish the house cleaning and preparing my alter, I am going to stop watching a lot of television and go back to reading Outlander and all of my Wiccan, Witchcraft, and other books throughout the winter. I think that this will be a better way to spend my time than watching television all night/
The routines that I set up for myself since July have been going well, I will be able to do them when I start working again...I will have to do them earlier, and after I get out of bed, but that is alright. I don't mind. I will have to add in a small ritual for protection, prosperity and abundance for work.
I can't believe that I have been out of work this long. It make me wonder how I will be able to survive when I retire. I have a feeling that I will be so bored that I might take on a part time job or volunteer work just so that I am not sitting at home day after day.
Right now, I am focusing on housework, Wicca and preparing for this coming Monday. I am getting excited about what is coming up. Life will feel better for me, and I am certain that I can will feel better in the long run.
I am hoping that when I do go back to work I can lose a few pounds. I gained so much weight this year that I am frustrated with it. It is the most that I have weighed in my entire life, and I am now about twenty five pounds over what I was when I went in for my surgery and then chemotherapy and radiation. I don't like it at all.
I can't wait to can't wait to consecrate and set up my alter again. I am excited about this because I have felt out of touch without it since I moved into my apartment fifteen or so months ago. It also feels right because I haven't had an alter up in about two years, when I had to live with my dad and stepmother.
I am also looking forward to not wearing my pajamas all day and missing most of the daylight or wasting the day watching television. I will not be hesitant to put on regular clothes and looking like everyone else who goes out to work.
Life is getting better and I hope that it continues to get better. I hope that the cancer doesn't come back when I go to work and that I stay healthy.
Blessed be.
-Raven
As of today, this blog has been up for fifteen years!!
I am surprised that I have been able to keep going, even if I have been doing so on and off for the last five or six years!!
Happy 15th Anniversary, Blue Rose Journal!!!
